Chapter 9
Nadia
Falls in love beyond herself
She woke up very slowly in the midst of powerful dreams and visions that were not at all who she was before. The new world reality predicted by the strange woman in the small shop was now taking place more quickly than she knew. It was as if she could see two realities now. There was the reality of the ferry going to Greece, she remembered this, and there was now the new reality of she as a much larger much more embodied being. With her second eyes she could see far in the past to a land she did not recognize at all and see far in the future to another place that was new and see who she was beginning to become. The two realities fit together perfectly but were not at all the same. They did not feel the same, taste the same, smell the same. She knew the two ways were different states of consciousness.
She looked around her on the deck of the ferry. She saw the many people camping, reading, reading and messaging on their phones, talking to each other. She saw the sea. With her second sight, in the sea she saw the sea creatures. She saw dolphins, she saw whales, she saw all manner of fish, octopuses, squid and eels. Then, she saw mermaids and finally she saw a huge woman hovering over sea like a goddess and a huge man like a god of the sea. Finally, she saw the sea itself as a spirit and then, she saw only pure and perfect emptiness. She was shocked beyond measure. With one set of eyes she saw the railing and the blue water of the Aegean on a marvelous clear warm day. With her second sight she saw animals, spirits, goddess and god like beings and she did not know what. Then, she looked at the deck. With one sight she saw campers, families, sleeping mats, the bar, the swimming pool, the jumble of people and gear that was going to Greece on holiday. With the other eye she saw a beautiful man looking at her. He was not a man, he was godlike, his beauty was not of this time or space at all. He was so huge, so powerful, so gentle at the same time. He was not from this place she knew, he was traveling and he was looking at her into her eyes from not this space and time. She knew this faster than immediately.
The very center of the being, the place between the two sights, then left her and went to him and merged with his center in one moment and turned into pure energy. Now, Nadia had been in love before in her life. Nadia was not looking for a boyfriend or lover or for sex now. She was traveling to Greece, to Delos to try to find the balm that healed her in a short vision and she hoped would heal her woundedness, take away her suffering from endless time. She was on a journey of healing, not a journey for a boyfriend. When she had been in love before it had been complicated. She never knew if he was the right one, there was always something wrong, the lovers were violent, crazy, to straight , boring, and her love turned into judgment and even though she continued with the relationships until they ended in violence or sadness or pain she knew it was love but it was not what she wanted or was meant for. The past had been love as confusion and pain. Now, there was something totally different, something beyond form into energy, something pure and overwhelming.