Finding my gift. Inner voices from spirit have always helped me follow my path to discover and honor my gift. Each of us has a gift, who we actually are, why we are here. The gift is confused by culture, parents, school, it’s up to us to find it and follow it again. When I was young,  I was confused about my path, about what I needed to do in my life, about what was my purpose for being here on earth. It did not seem clear to me how all the pieces of my life fit together in the world I lived in. I  was a teenager, the pain and suffering, depression and confusion of my life not working pushed me to the edge to change.  One day, on the way home from school I heard,  “Do what you love now.” So,  I picked up a camera and took photos of weeds in snow. The moment I did that I went elsewhere.. I was within beauty, it was quiet, I could hear voices, and all was well. This was my first art and healing experience and my first clear voice to change my life.  So I received that gift and I did what I loved whenever I met a fork in the road. The first big fork was the choice between continuing my career in medical research or becoming a  photographer in the country..  umm. I made a clear choice.. or.. did I really have a choice?  I choose becoming an artist and that led to moving to the country and building my own house and raising my own food.  The birth of my sons led to natural childbirth relaxation training, and after an oil spill when I was the county doc, to setting up a integrative clinic in our small town that included allopathic medicine, guided imagery, Native American  medicine, color healing theater, love healing etc.  Doing only the medicine that I loved led to me to a practice using  guided imagery and visions with people with life threating illness and chronic pain… and that led to writing books on how to medicine and healing with spirit and to art and healing.   And , on a parallel path taking place at the same time, from the beginning, I was sent as a doc to the Hopi res, I worked with RT (Rolling Thunder) and meet my dancing bear and the folks at Mahutasen and found my bear was actually doing the healing for me. Umm . Now that I am older I see that all that I loved has led me to who I am. What I loved, was actually the teachings from my heart and the inner voices from spirit telling me what my gift was and who I was. It was and still my road, not one I ever could imagine or invent with my conscious planning mind. I am a bear dancing doc, I teach and help put art and healing in hospitals,  I work with visions with people with life threatening illness, life crises, fertility and spirit growth,  and I live on the sacred healing island of Greece with my beautiful wife and write about miracles, time and space disappearing and being one with all… ummm…I offer prayers to the 4 directions, and I thank ancestors, spirit guides, spirit animals, teachers, revered sacred figures,  lovers, Great Spirit and Mother Earth, grandmothers and grandfathers for these gifts and for any moments my prayers can facilitate healing for myself, others, community the earth, and stars.   Building my own house, about 1970,